No posts lately. Not feeling happy.
Quite the opposite in fact. I cannot believe it's only a few months away from being a year that J left, and I'm still in a state of near (and actual) tears at random times.
I don't want him back. I know it would never work after this, but it feels like there's no joy in the world anymore. Chickie is my one shining light and I'm so glad he's here.
I'm just... struggling. Don't mind me.
